Chapter22: Wasted

I hear the key in the door, so you’ve decided to come in
I don’t know where the hell you’ve been boy
You see the look on my face and yet you dare to ask, “What’s up”
Don’t even know where to start, but I know I’ve had enough

My lovin’, my darling
You must think I’m stupid
For letting you do this to me but
My darling my lovin’ is way to precious
So you better listen

G.T.F.O.
That’s what you need to do now
There is the door
Please let yourself out
Argue no more
This convo is quite finished
So G.T.F.O.
Before I kick you out

Still have that look on your face, asking: “Baby why you trippin’”
I don’t know where the hell you’ve been boy
As we both know that is not our only issue
With all the secrets you keep y’already know the problem is you

My lovin’, my darling
You must think I’m stupid
For letting you do this to me but
My darling my lovin’ is way to precious
So you better listen

G.T.F.O.
That’s what you need to do now
There is the door
Please let yourself out
Argue no more
This convo is quite finished
So G.T.F.O.
Before I kick you out

Darlin you should know that I know my worth
I’m not gon’ let you treat me like dirt
A solid commitment is what I deserve
You’re not the one so boy bye

G.T.F.O.
That’s what you need to do now
There is the door
Please let yourself out
Argue no more
This convo is quite finished
So G.T.F.O.
Before I kick you out

Go, go, please hurry out the door
Damn sure don’t need you inna my life
It hurts ain’t lyin it sure does
Ain’t worth my precious time

I see you staring at me
I wonder what you see
I see that glow on your skin
Hot chocolate
Maybe there is a way
That you can move my way
Something’s pulling me in
This magnet

I know we’ve just met, but I can’t hide my interest
Shy girl on the move to try something new

Get the freaks out
It’s ‘bout to get real’ awkward
Crazy comes out ‘cause your vibe feels real’ good
So good so good
I think I really like you, I do, I do do.

Wait. I feel the vibe is just right
Your looks, what a delight
I surely hope that your mind reflects your beauty
Stir up the conversation.
Stuttering, words, can’t find them
I hope you don’t loose interest
Cold sweat

I know we’ve just met, but I can’t hide my interest
Shy girl on the move to try something new

Get the freaks out
It’s ‘bout to get real’ awkward
The crazy comes out ‘cause your vibe feels real’ good
It’s so good, so good
I think I really like you, I do, I do do.

Get the freaks out
It’s ‘bout to get real’ awkward
Crazy comes out ‘cause your vibe feels real’ good
So good so good
I think I really like you, I do, I do do.

I told my girls you could get it
I think I’m finally ready, tonight
From where I’m standing I can tell ya
Dream team be winning
Day and night

So tell me what next babe
After texting babe
We both know that you my main and
I’m your lady

Are you ready to go all the way?
‘cause we both know what’s missing babe

I’ll have you slide into the deepest corners of my soul, baby
I’ll take you places I never let nobody go, baby
I tell you this lovin’ is drippin and drippin in gold, baby
It’s gon’ be phenominal, gon’ be phenominal

Get it?
It’s getting real I admit it. Tonight
But I ain’t scared of it, not anymore
I think you deserve it. Come on, come on

So tell me what next babe
After texting babe
We both know that you my main and
I’m your lady

Are you ready to go all the way?
‘cause we both know what’s missing babe

I’ll have you slide into the deepest corners of my soul, baby
I’ll take you places I never let nobody go, baby
I tell you this lovin’ is drippin and drippin in gold, baby
It’s gon’ be phenominal, gon’ be phenominal

I want you to pop (pop pop)
My cherry (pop my cherry)
I’m gonna let (I’ll let)
You have me (let you have me, have me)
I know I won’t (I won’t)
Regret it (won’t regret it)
This liquid golden lovin (liquid golden love’ ‘den lovin’ lovin’)

I can’t believe I said I love you
While at the same time think of all the reasons why I cannot do so
Quite new and complex loving someone like you
Yet you pull me closer
To you
I’m in way too deep to let you go but

How can my outside contrast what’s so clear inside
My mind says no while but heart knows it’s just right
Which way should we go now

But if I play it sane and
Go in my dear brain’s way
I’ll never find out what’s true
And what loving hearts can do
It’s time to answer these questions
If all fails they are still lessons
Let’s forget consequences
Focus on real love, love

I’ve never felt this way that I do
A thousand questions on my mind,
I’m at loss to which answer should I listen?
Who am I and am I ready to live my truth
I thought I was tolerant
Yet your outside really seems to make a difference

How can my outside contrast what’s so clear inside
My mind says no while but heart knows it’s just right
Which way should we go now

But if I play it sane and
Go in my dear brain’s way
I’ll never find out what’s true
And what loving hearts can do
It’s time to answer these questions
If all fails they are still lessons
Let’s forget consequences
Focus on real love, love

What if’s and but’s
Do’s and what not’s
Zoom in on the feels
The butterflies and hots
We know that in love
There can’t be a perfect way
So I’ll say

Let’s not play it sane and
Go in our dear brain’s way
We’ll never find out what’s true
And what loving hearts can do
It’s time to answer these questions
If all fails they are still lessons
Let’s forget consequences
Focus on real love, love